In the midst of a lot of confusion, time came for me to get back to School.
My studying thing, as far as I can recall, has always been compelled sort of stuff – except for my bachelors. Compelled in a sense, I always find it hard to study and I had a very little interest. I went to school – but never knew what I should be learning. Not that my parents were slack – they always alerted me the consequences of bad grades. Still – I couldn’t turn out to be a good student. I have confessed it a lot of time in my life, and I do not hesitate to confess it again – I was always a low-scoring-student, the student who could only get the required marks to be considered of promoting in the higher level. That’s how the studying thing was with me.
After my secondary schooling was over, I went on to study Management for higher secondary. Fuck it. That was one of the worst decision ever. Not knowing what to study killed my interest of studying, if I had any. It took five years for me to complete the two years course. Reason – I failed on Business Mathematics two times and didn’t appeared in examination for the next two years. Four years in vain. Fifth try and I made it.
I think I have this strange kind of relation with studies – we don’t go well together. Perhaps, it was because I took my studies for granted. While at college, I never realized the real value of studying. I used to think, with or without it – life goes on. But then I was wrong. Had I not studied this far, life would have been very worse. It was only while I was working for a NGO that I felt like studying. Motivated, somehow I did my Bachelors. Then again, when time came for post-graduation – my strange relation showed up. It didn’t went well and I did not studied further. I wasted another three freaking years.
Studying still is indispensable. And now that I’ve just enrolled myself for Post-graduates, I am glad and thrilled, literally. I am going back to studies, how cool is that. Hopefully, my strange relation will not show up this time around and the course will be done without any breaks whatsoever.
I am thankful to all those who’ve been constantly urging me to continue my study. Yes I am back to school and I am there to advance.
Yet again. I am back to School
I’ve been thinking about this lately. What if there is no fear. No fear at all. Is it possible for people to live a fearless life? Or it’s just that we’ve live with fear and that we don’t expose it. I really wanted to give it a try – a fearless living.
Given that I want to try a fearless living obviously means that I have fears. I fear reading, for example – what if I cannot get a thing. I fear writing – what if I cannot write any good, and that’s beside a lot of crappy shits that sometimes make me go in despair. Now that when I have fear, I am at my worst version of myself. Yet there are times, when I have surpassed fears and found the best version of myself. Meaning – abolishing fear can lead you to the best version of you.
Now if that’s what it is, why not go for a fearless living. Why lead a fearful life and be the worst version of ourselves when we can have the best version of ourselves and see the endless possibilities around. Worth a try – a fearless living.
Let’s try and get it this way. It’s the fear that we need to figure out first. What are the things that we’re more scared of?
Figured it out? Now do it. DO IT.
Thinking about the fears and ways to abolish it – I could not find any other option but to deal with it. Deal it. Face it!
Change is Mandatory.
Yes! I believe change is mandatory. It is the only way that keeps us going. It is simply impossible for things to remain still. Every second things are changing. The way it is now will not be the same. For good or for bad, things will change. And you must adjust your sails – before you’re blown away.
No, I don’t mean changes are bad. In fact, they are good. Above all, we’ve got the power to keep our sails adjusted. Tough job – I know. I’ve many a times, failed to keep it under control – leaving myself more vulnerable of being blown away. Every day I feel the challenge to continuously adjust the sails. The choice is always ours – to be blown away or keep adjusting the sails.
Change is not only mandatory but inevitable as well. Whether you’re prepared or not – things are sure to change. Changes can both be expected and unexpected. Expected changes, perhaps will provide you with the light that you’re looking for in life, and those unexpected will hit you hard. That’s change and it’s bound to happen.
Now if you’re expecting things to change for better, you’ve got to keep yourself pushing towards it – no looking back. On your way to change – the wind is sure to blow. The harsh realities of life will strike and make you feeble. Your heart will feel heavy, head will refuse to function, and weary legs will deny to take another step.
Change, however will come – favorable or not. And if you’re only able to keep your sails adjusted – you’re bound get the change you’re looking for.
Work on it, change is waiting.
Now this seems to be so damn true. Though, I don’t really know what this stand-up comedian ‘George Carlin’ might have thought while saying this – but he’s said the truth. The Planet is Fine, the People are Fucked.
The planet has been doing good and its literally very fine – but there’s the problem with our fellow fucktard people. People don’t really seem to care anything unless it’s about the fucking self. Regardless of where we are or what we do, its basically the self – that we care about. Fair enough! But then, not to the extent that you forget everything but you. That’s mean. Man, seriously.
I could only IMAGINE if only people were less selfish and a lot of love around. We’d be in Peace.
The Planet is Fine. The People are Fucked.